PART ONE ETHER Relec: breath like waking from a nightmare what is this is? Che cosa e questo? is anyone there? E la? Am I dreaming? Am i dead? Sto sognando? just a soul lost and alone in a place unknown suspended in the shapeless shadow of death afraid of what the darkness holds can't move on or let go of the life so bright thats now taken away and I try to recall what brought me into this void holding my soul cause it seems an infinite oblivian All the scenes from the lucid dream of life have passed me by a forced disconnection from a world in which I no longer have a role to play impending sense of doom from deep within, a wicked whisper winding its way into my soul, I close my eyes and still it looms there is no escape from it this beast tormenting me with guilt fear despair and pain and shame, this rage and hate this lust and greed , this last deceit of narcissistic nature I'm fighting back to break away it drags me down to drown me out don't take me under to suffocate, quit telling me there’s no escape, no escape knowing now , somehow, this journey has run its course and from one place to another life took form and quickly withered like a rose in autumn now the fluidity of movement through memory shares the continuity with an interrupted dream fading with each passing moment and as the final glimmer flashes within my mind the ghost of memory contrasting faintly against a sea of black, rises like a mist and begins to dis-join and to slowly slink away this precious last shard of human life takes my hands and we ascend wait not yet not now can't let go though its surrounding reassuring me there's so much more than this and its not the end so loosen up this grip and slip away into the place that's pulling thought and memory like gravity, overwhelming me so much strength against the human deep inside telling me to run and hide telling me to fight and stay alive I close my eyes hang on tight prepare to greet eternity, and see if its any thing like the world told me the end would be I can't be afraid, no don't be afraid so i won't be afraid shouldn't be afraid oh God I'm so afraid PART TWO BOOM the silver thread snaps unveiling earths nebulous antithetic plane the dancing vibrant mass of mist a multitude of manes emanate from Gaea twisting and spinning painting the ethereal canvas a polychromasia of luminescence all the colors beyond the rainbow in juxtaposition fill the sky cycles of metamorphosis dilate and dwindle intermittently bringing clarity to images the mind of man cannot conceive or describe like the fractals upon the turbulent surface of a realm of a billion galaxies intertwined to form one solid blanket of beauty like fire on water circling outward in ripples of infinity like a precious and beautiful thunder cloud stretching as far as new eyes can see and encompassing a fading globe souls on parade begin their dance enticing me calling me to join this spectacle before me 'venga unire la nostra parata a cielo venuto all'interno viva come luce venga alla sporenza, faccia un passo fuori ed impari mezmerised that I have finally arrived i draw closer to the once mortal beings to learn what they know to feel what they feel now more than ever convinced to give myself away here in this place deep within the self which the world has never seen Where all perfections of life never even dreamed are possible if only imagined and accepted by believing I'm perceiving out side a reflection of what is inside so in essence existence does not exist. this cell and these walls created by my own will with loneliness, handiwork of my own cold, self loving, and selfish heart must now depart Take over me. Take over me. then set me free god a brilliant light surrounds taking over so close to white but containing every hue simultaneously a sparkling radiance like I have never seen i surrender all my strength giving my all to the moment locked in the purest release the lightest and most loving embrace more euphoric than any drug or lover become so weak like an infant once again it returns ah that child like Innocence and un-jaded faith and enough imagination to create the surrounding world its been so long since I felt this way I had forgotten it I begin diminishing to nothing as I become a part of the light here inside this infinite beauty one with God connected tapped in saturated with all that is senses give way convinced this ideal perfection is only a glimpse of all it has to offer how could words describe God is more than we ever imagined i've come so far though the deepest darkness into the light but still within the dark closes in making this peace seem like the calm before the st the peril revealed is too much for me to defeat I can not fight this war i have not the strength but what Is won’t let me slip away instead He takes my place in the void fading in and out of shadow DANGER WAR lines are drawn distinguishing dissociation between the gray all grows black and white as two columns form winding together bottom to top spiraling upwards like dueling snakes mighty clash between heaven and hell waged within begins in the in the end there can be only one victor of this divided soul one side must go none cannot destroy the darkness only let it go VICTORY through multiple options you just found light in total vi after we rise life is now about to take flight sins destroyed from out of the you as there is no longer war with in your self lead a journey towards the next step i see you know now its time to accept you get what you get and then now put you conscious inside out around and through it with the knowledge you have... is there a shape, a body for the journey that lies ahead? do I continue to be me with no memory? I break free from all these doubts, fears, and misery... now take the burnt ashes bent and crumbled in the physical that causes the limits with in the literal that's lost in my stencils of cookie cut poly-rhythmical chaos retrieve a breathe of fresh scent from the bitter spices that keep us all above the subtle levels of now and eternally shake us... a new door opens to a thousand paths only one to choose to take me to the next fork down the road I know there's gonna be a thousand more diverging like the branches of a tree ever outward ever onward into infinity the road laid out in front of me i wonder if I'll ever be the way i was when i was young so calm and sure and understood the dreams i had all turned out sad and in the end it comes back again so take my hand and lead me down into a love that's all around this every day same had taken away my will to survive but I will try just one more time to radiate in the every day same *"Aww geeze", you just came from beyond the darkness strictly to move on stay on to grow on the shackles of course have left you its self is victory continue on without a recollection of who you are self correction is no longer a worry until you see the I end and your side arm expands widen to around a panoramic directors cut a scene so focused between two points each scene is sure but only one is the future unclear tears of fear no longer exist forever is now and ever onward beauty has never felt so good its full and belts together as if you were earthed reason is birth seasons uncursed pure enough and it hurts not even curious any more cause from here on what happens happens nothing could dampen the grip you've clamped so enough of having cause i've had it... LOVE The sacrifices are already made to move on to what is ahead. life provides another step, another story with the connection now severed forcing this segment of growth into becoming its own. A piece of art that will never be what the next will be. funny how the artist is doomed to failure but in the attempt to exactly portray the scream within success is attained Though nothing ever means all it is meant to mean peices added to the vague snapshots of ourselves from the perception of another mind allows the bird of art to take flight shedding over time new meaning to intentions of a newly past life small reincarnations through passing moments Compose a record of how we grow moving on, evolving , becoming new I am driven more than ever to give it all. but its no longer me it’s somthing so pure deep inside I once forgot i had I'm experiencing a never ending dream becoming reality For some reason I thought all questions would be answered but instead they seem to multiply. what is the final goal? what does the future hold? i still don’t know but when my eyes open I’ll be staring over a bow across the ocean of Sancia-Estheras Enthralled by a journey in seed like a ribbon in front of me one ending becoming a new beginning I’ll be moving on to place beyond With eyes set upon a distant shore It is now time to fullfill every potiential. no turning back no backward glance

Every time you leave a place you change, you change so completely that you don't even recognize yourself.